if i could turn back time.......i would.

a good day to me is one where i avoid static shock, how about you?

ah......... the joy of angry music.  i love it so.  *sigh* 

sometimes i wonder why i try so hard.
with relationships.
with friends.

if i had to break it down there are only a few things that really matter to me.
Ryan.
air.
food (tho not really)
water.
thats about it.

my g/f is driving me fucking insane.
anyone that knows the me of present day would know that when i have a problem i wont hesistate to take it to the person i have it with.
unless.....
that person happens to be the one im dating.

i dont know how to break up with someone.
id rather suffer than hurt anyone else.
gah.  fuck fuck fuck me fuck you.  why do things have to be difficult?
pisses me off.

is it sad that i started here at motime to rant about things i cant on my myspace blog?

the thing i cant figure out about this whole bullshit thing called dating is this-
why is it that when i really really like the person they always break up with me?
but when i get into it and the person is ok, but not completely what i want they are always really into me? then they end up annoying me.

on another note....
i have no feeling in my left hand's middle finger
hurt it at work, it got infected, they cut it out, it was gross/cool.
but now i have no feeling in it, and i cant bend the knuckle closest to the tip of it either. i kinda have a permanent fuck you going on haha!

"im outside of your window/
with my radio/
you are the only station/
you play the song i know/
(you are the song i know)"

i kinda hate my life thats going no where.

posted by: heartofstone at 22:30 | link | comments (1) |

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#1  17 February 2006 - 04:58

 

well, that was in fact the point of it... nothing like innuendo to make someone's day. on a side note, wow, had the exact same situation with the whole only sort of liking someone who's really into you thing. it sucks. it sucks to break up with someone, hurt their feelings, and feel like a shitty person. but you have to be honest with yourself, otherwise you're lying to everyone. if you really don't want to be with her, then she's not getting the full benefit of the relationship anyway, so you may as well stop. it's going to be hard to hurt someone, especially if you are fond of them, but if it's necessary then the sooner you do it the better.

dreamchaser04

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